Same old brand new me new year 2018

New year or new blues ? The very first time I pen In for this year just right after the old year 2017 has flown by. Lots of new year wishes everywhere and Facebook is definitely the hottest platform for wishes and greetings. Speaking of Facebook, lots of people whom I used to know singles renewed their love or vows and some even declared engagement. On thumbing through, lots of unpredictable news especially people whom I came across, thought they would have a character too strong for commitment pronounced engaged on the new year day. Yes, the ring and the status switched from single to attached. This reminds me that my time is ticking, and I am far far away sitting at the back of the bus seat, waiting for the stop to get out or shall I say , waiting for the right one to whisk me out to look outside the world with him. Given the limitation of us being in the rainbow community make it hard to socialise out and loud in the conservative society and when it comes to fixing a date, nothing but the social app makes it easy or is it the other way round. The reason why I said was that a guy whom I got to know less than 48 hours on the social dating app chickened out last minute. We were supposed to meet up like an old fashioned reservation dinner for two in the restaurant but he could not make it, for a reason of working out too hard in the gym and prefer to rest at home to recover his muscle ache. Once is fine but twice is the shame for me . I was not born yesterday and the same old trick did not work out too good for me to believe that he was sincerely and genuine to go out with me . The first lesson happened when the guy whom I got to know after two dates blew me off last minute of not attending the movies which I had reserved online for the tickets. The reason, last minute chickened out and his reason being , got caught up with his family. Feeling sick of asking people out and taking the initiative to make the first move, I abruptly disconnected myself from that guy out of feeling frustration and upset. What should be the way for dating , ask or do not ask ? Happy new year for some but no so happy new year for the new start for me.